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A lesson learnt}
Thursday, July 23, 2015 | 7:44 PM | 0Comment Today was my ugliest day. Now I understand why people are always showing their best side to others while they suffer in silence. Seeing G&I who looked like they could pull off anything and look the best in front of others while they miss sleepless nights to complete their work so as to show that front made me very determined not to be like them. At that time I thought, just be the real you, why do you choose to suffer in silence and just let others see your glory side. Probably I could better understand why after today. I needed to hand in an assignment for my portfolio today. As usual, its last min work again but this time, it really hit my limit. I was trying to do it yesterday and last night. But I was still unable to finish it. I really wanted to hand in late because I knew I could not complete it in time. Therefore, instead of thinking of how to complete it, I was thinking of how I can skip class. Just nice, I fell ill. But it wasn't as if I was going to die. So I was still fit to go to school. I couldn't decide if I should skip school. But in the end, I couldn't get pass my conscience and still went eventually. It turned out to be a terrible decision because I look super desperate in front of all the strangers in my class. However, I know that if I did not go, it would be a worse decision because I would be going against my conscience and feel bad. Anyways, speaking of what happen the whole of today. In the morning, I woke up and started working on the undone parts. I tried but still could not finish. I continued on the bus and eventually in school, rushing from place to place to complete it. By the time it was 10, I still could not finish it. With high hopes that the teacher would at least allow me to extend for a few more hours, I went to school with a heavy heart. He coldheartedly told me that he would leave right after class and would not stay behind. I was totally shock. But I could not blame anyone but myself. I ran to ourspace to print out and do as much as I can. Then with still some left over parts, I complete it after class was over, before the teacher leave. What was bad wasn't all the rushing from place to place. Its the pity I sense from the strangers in my class that made me look down on myself. The assignment was already extended by 2 weeks but yet I still could not finish it. I really look pathetic. To make it worse, I can feel the invisible look-down expression from my groupmates. After the class ended, and I immediately sat down to do it, while my classmates leave, I could feel the saying "gosh, look at her, she is so pathetic!" I can't say that I'm determined not to let this happen again because really, I'm really a failure who can't stick to what I say. As long as I can always remember today's episode, I really cannot repeat such happenings again. |
